Five months and crabby

So we're five months into this very, very, very long wait.

I find myself really cranky the last few weeks, especially with my hubby. Is it related to this interminable wait? Or am I just dwelling on self---- talking it out on him? Whatever it is, I wish I would snap out of it. Cause I don't like myself when I'm like this.

This week was Valentine's Day. On Wed (V-day) we had a steak dinner planned at home. Right as we were about to eat our friends, D and J, called to see if they could come over to heat their dinner and bathe the kids. Their power had gone out because of the snow and ice we also got this week. Oops, forgot to mention that. We got snow and ice this week. No school Wed-Friday, still out there. Temps aren't getting above freezing this entire week. Brr.....

But I digress. Anyway, we didn't exactly have a romantic dinner with all the kids and unexpected company. Therein my point of crabbiness on this particular day. By the next day, I realized how self-centered my attitude was and hated that I felt that way the night before. On Thursday, Feb 15, we went to dinner leaving E with L and K, and their son R. It was a nice dinner, and for the first time this week, we actually had a nice conversation. (My fault, not his)

Anyway, feeling better. I need to follow the philosophy that feelings and actions begin with thoughts. If I choose to think good things about my life, good things about my husband.... therein my emotions will follow. I hate that sometimes I focus on the negative.

I will not allow myself to be cranky again (or for a good long while). It makes me and everyone around me miserable.

Disclaimer: I read over this and it sounds probably worse than it is. :) I haven't thrown anything, yelled, or had any major explosions. I have been short, snippy, and inwardly had a bad, bad attitude. Not pleasant to live with. You know. Woman drama.